Recently a relationship in my life ended, one that at one time meant a lot to me. Most folks would be sad, yet I feel almost relieved. It is not that she was bad, in fact she was good, too good, almost way too good to and for me. Why then am I not sad?
Good question. I think sometimes people can be destructive toward one another. She was and is a good person. Yet, when I talked to her I felt as though everything I said to her was taken out of context. When I tried, she cried. When she talked to me about her feelings, I found it boring. She deserves better than that. I deserve better than to be treated as though I am an idiot, I am not from the East, I did not attend private college, I am a guy from the American West, I believe that deserts are beautiful not water deprived wastelands. To the girl... Well I wish you the best, I might as well go on and set you free, you've already turned me loose. No fault, no blame, nobody done no wrong- That's just the way it sometimes goes. Sometimes two people just don't get along, it's time to hit the road.
I believe that people are strange, though it would at times be nice to get together once a quarter with the opposite sex, or whomever you may be attracted to; mate, and move on.
Second thing....
Have you ever ran into someone that you don't know repeatedly? It is like in the movie of my life the director ran out of extras.
I can totally feel destructive relationships! I spent 5 years in one (and dont regret a moment)!
Posted by: Erica at September 20, 2005 07:37 PMI guess I'm just a lucky, lucky guy . . . I bounced, uncaring, from one to the next.
Then one stuck.
Odd thing is, I knew the one that stuck was going to stick only about three weeks into it. Odder still is that I wasn't looking for anything permanent anyway.
Wish I could give you advice Jess, but my own courtship and marriage is a mystery even to me.
I’d give you advice Jess but my own situation is so far beyond strange. I stayed in a destructive relationship for 6 years… so I guess I can’t say much other than, “better to know now instead of 6 years from now”.
Posted by: Jenn at September 21, 2005 08:19 AMSee you and raise you by 10 years. After 17 years I finally (oh duh) figured out that it was NOT GOING TO GET BETTER. OK. I'm a slow learner. Really.
Now me and the menagerie go out on a Friday night and all come home about 2 am to trade notes. Since I'm trading notes with a horse, a dog, 4 cats, and a box turtle, I tend to come out on top!
OK. Especially since all of them except the box turtle are neutered....
As far as the "extras" in your life...I seem to have alot of people saying to me, "Do I know you?" lately. (Biblically, definately not!)
Posted by: JulieB at September 23, 2005 04:09 PM